tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-134802832011-04-22T10:49:33.647+10:00abbznoreply@blogger.comBlogger1251100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13480283.post-26425653625596440982009-04-03T10:17:00.002+11:002009-04-03T10:33:39.856+11:00

here's a lonely post years later.i made a vow last time to be working on acting, and put my heart and all into it, as much as I could.got some paid work, also getting to be on tv for a small gig. and what does this feel like?i felt empty. it's not that i am not thankful and that the work has not reaped rewards and happiness for me, it's just that this chase that has happened for the past couple

abbznoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13480283.post-5931839687612367722007-09-27T16:14:00.001+10:002007-09-27T16:16:40.774+10:00

i hereby make the commitment to myself that no matter how difficult the road ahead becomes and no matter how hard it is, i will become a well honed, strong, crafted actor. it does not matter how far i get, i promise to never lose sight of this commitment.

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i was walking through an empty airport, and it is dark outside. the place is deserted and i have arrived at a checkpoint though it was completely empty. there is an eerie feeling about this. it appears i recently died and i'm basically checking in and out of quarantine areas, and waiting to move on from this waiting area.i move through, half not having realised what i should do or where the

abbznoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13480283.post-57048557027375319032007-05-15T19:07:00.000+10:002007-05-15T19:26:39.893+10:00

today was one of those pretty cool days...not weather-wise, since it was SCORCHING and possibly cooler being a cake baked in a fan force oven. it was HOT. no rain, even though it look like it really wanted to, but we biked it for 1 1/2 hours (scooter) to My Son, where the World Cultural Heritage site was. it's always much cooler when they don't "reconstruct" everything to death. the amazing thing

abbznoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13480283.post-17918871851488296792007-05-14T22:48:00.000+10:002007-05-14T23:09:00.000+10:00

not so sure i went in knowing what to expect. so far it has been a trip of haggling, heat exhaustion and alot of afternoon and daytime drenches that no umbrella/raincoat could possibly work. cat ba island was nice, picturesque, as we kayaked for 2 days (ends up to be a few hours in total though!) but went to a beautiful lagoon that was only accessible through low tide. there were red coral

abbznoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13480283.post-38496052861931322542007-05-07T22:19:00.000+10:002007-05-08T01:19:56.157+10:00

missing those days where soup was something that we all had time to make together. pho came like clockwork every weekend, and spring rolls were delicious, filled with prawn, glass vermicili, pork, black fungus. and a weekend ritual was instant noodles with own choice of meat and veg.then there were home made curry puffs, pork patties that dad used to make (that i used to be ashamed of at school

abbznoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13480283.post-68866848808415140612007-04-24T19:56:00.000+10:002007-04-24T20:24:47.335+10:00

walked into work on monday afternoon (on my normal day off), to find my boss, one of the equity partners of the firm, is leaving at end of the week.he didn't tell me. i walked in to confront him. he didn't seem to care. he said he's onto different things and hopefully another company. he seemed ok. doesn't make sense an equity partner would withdraw equity to fund another business after only

abbznoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13480283.post-60067266680527626992007-04-22T23:37:00.000+10:002007-04-23T00:02:55.002+10:00

HSBC, the world's local bank - cry oh cry!my week without access to my own account:day 1: my atm card stops working on all atms including hsbc's. i call up the phone banking to arrange another one. i had to ask a friend to pay for my lunch - someone i dont see very often. i am very embarassed. i asked kenny to take out some extra cash for me and i could wire the money back as soon as i get

abbznoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13480283.post-21481374326662374942007-03-26T08:17:00.000+10:002007-03-26T08:27:35.378+10:00

got over that strange bump.and onto another very similar looking one.one that keeps me checked, straps me down.everyday i toy with the idea of quitting my job and just going to melbourne without notice.i would...struggle, or land on a feathery pillow, all fluffed up for me.stagnation is the biggest killer. the longer you stand, the less strength you have left to move away, and yet, i have

abbznoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13480283.post-75474411588693415742007-03-18T23:59:00.000+11:002007-03-19T00:18:15.056+11:00

so there i was dying my hair which is something that i do at home, periodically.i've basically been doing this since i was like..15, so generally i don't really mess up the place.but today, i forget, there are 2 x 1/2 mm specs of dye on the bathroom tile and i just, well, didn't actually see the damn specs.i was then marched into the bathroom, and demanded to clean it up.i usually don't mind but

abbznoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13480283.post-49152601079323462042007-03-10T14:40:00.000+11:002007-03-10T14:49:42.815+11:00

teeth.thank god.but at the moment i look a little bit like a boxer who has lost a few rounds...and have a bit of a pudgy face.all good.i was hoping this weekend would be filled with fun, going out, taking time out, being with people, heading to melbourne to visit nai...but as one would expect, i wasn't well enough to head down to melb because my dizziness comes and goes...i hoped for a

abbznoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13480283.post-20985911688918898392007-03-06T00:12:00.000+11:002007-03-06T23:33:40.163+11:00

the vagina monologues @ Sydney Theatre - photos up here!!! the photographer was so easy to work with... :)in other news: i'm getting my wisdoms out tomorrow...wish me luck!

abbznoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13480283.post-2760111707414559712007-02-28T23:24:00.000+11:002007-02-28T23:27:56.201+11:00

minty...jila spearmint balls.have just noted that today, today is a countdown to a few major things:1. the play will be over in 3 nights2. i will be auditioning again in 6 days3. my teeth will be ripped from my jaw in exactly 1 week4. i'm back in class in 2 weeks.great things. a lull to the start of the year but all will look up.welcome home, FLANKLINS!eric chose an awesome restaurant in paddo

abbznoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13480283.post-68989016489736401782007-02-25T17:01:00.000+11:002007-02-25T17:23:04.768+11:00

semi poetic and political and yet so lost in this wondrous placea person who spins the web keeps spinning sporadicallycast tangles create anarchyi cannot speak openly and i feel untruthfulsome bitch told me to play fetchi am not a dogan excuse that i wasn't there "again" covers mea dark splash of messy beige paintnon-elegant feigns classsee through the transparent liestalent is forced to feel

abbznoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13480283.post-54184674647666233782007-02-22T11:08:00.000+11:002007-02-22T11:40:33.741+11:00

firstly, welcome my cuz, ni, for being back in the blog loop (or keeping me updated :P)if you hadn't already, go see notes on a scandal.a few things have caused me to not update my (now old) photos from my phone. but now that i have the device manager installed into my comp, here are some pics:entrance to a cinema in budapest...I AM AB-ORIGINAL!!!trippy subway tunnels...to those who are sure and

abbznoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13480283.post-3978308898037764112007-02-18T23:44:00.000+11:002007-02-18T23:58:44.634+11:00

HAPPY PIG YEAR!yes, i have been out of action for a while. i am not really up for open and honest chat to people for now. one thing burning in my mind and would not be doused. i cannot sleep, i don't feel happy. and boy i am glad that the dog year is finally up, and i should have better run of luck soon. if i believed in the greater forces supposedly controlling me. anyway, this year will

abbznoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13480283.post-29111410994086349972007-01-14T18:47:00.000+11:002007-01-14T18:50:02.699+11:00

hm. will just fade into the background for a bit.back sometime...abb

abbznoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13480283.post-65986884692841759872007-01-04T18:21:00.000+11:002007-01-04T18:34:15.514+11:00

rant and rave:I WILL NEVER GO TO A KOREAN HAIRDRESSER EVER AGAIN.i have to now push back my headshot session by at least 2 months no bloody thanks to some girl who didn't know wat she was doing touching my hair...it was starting to get long, and i wanted to grow it. and now it's unspeakably badly done, SHORT, over priced (i went in for a trim, she gave me a full hairstyle change, overcharged

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year is almost over, in less than 5 hours. wonder why we humans have a way of making a big deal out of just another day? why do we go "hey we should think about where our lives are at during this period of time, and think about what we want for next year, what we hope and dream to achieve?"the truth is, we probably do it all the time, and the thinking never really ceases. it just so happens

abbznoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13480283.post-80126626645761343832006-12-29T00:47:00.000+11:002006-12-29T01:29:28.902+11:00

my brain has been bewitched, bothered and bewildered by scenarios playing up in my most vulnerable hours. nonsensical dreams laced with signs that i can't seem to piece together when usually i am quite in touch with subconscious texts...i dreamt that i was in a prison, it is dark. it has an open exercise area and all the prisoners are in the open area. one by one the people are being killed.

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thoughts:contemplating new career/life directioninterviewed job, invited to do final rounds this thursdayaccepted a charity gig which, should all things run smoothly in life, will land yours truly a week's run of a play at sydney theatrestarted singing classes, but don't know how long it will go on for, depending on getting jobbooked photo session with a headshot photographer for new

abbznoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13480283.post-69675267881097832622006-12-14T13:38:00.000+11:002006-12-14T14:00:19.639+11:00

was sick.. had been for the past week..almost 2 now. woke up early today and had a bit of a walk around circular quay before going to work. sat there, beautiful blue sky with white cotton candy you could almost reach out and grab a handful...report back about the book i've been reading - bill bryson's "walkabout". today was the first time i looked at circular quay in the eyes of a potential

abbznoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13480283.post-1165324499436046942006-12-11T00:19:00.000+11:002006-12-11T00:22:57.776+11:00

in deep meditation, he pounded away the same way a blacksmith would shape metal. the harder he punched the calmer he felt, torn flesh revealing bare, chipped knucklebones. constant pain was the only assurance that he was still alive. relief. the face of the enemy now no more than a pathetic pink mess. he had suffered too long to not savour such peace of mind. no more taunts, threats, mind

abbznoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13480283.post-1165559031606248822006-12-08T17:15:00.000+11:002006-12-08T17:24:21.096+11:00

this is depressing.4:38pm - received an email alert from Sydney Festival about a play.a very interesting play. by Samuel Beckett. i read on. i clicked the link.the banner displayed for the website shows a familiar face. the star of Samuel Beckett's "First Love", a world premiere. the face was that of ralph fiennes. my heart skipped a beat. i could see him in a live performance...i had to

abbznoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13480283.post-1164807564525860602006-11-30T00:37:00.000+11:002006-11-30T00:43:12.680+11:00

a HUGE WELCOME TO CON-CON's BLOG!and welcome back to andrew's blog that got a new post in it (finally) :Dmore later..sleep first...

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been reading Bill Bryson's Walkabout.same old same old.here's a post i forgot to...erm..post...23/11...the thought of moving out of home for the first time gradually seeped into daily conversations and is sinking into the subconscious mind.where to go? can i afford it? what does this mean about where my life is headed? does anything change? what is the point?all very naive questions, since

abbznoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13480283.post-1164077580425548072006-11-21T13:25:00.001+11:002006-11-21T13:53:00.436+11:00

it's been a while since i last posted...great things have been happening outside work, and i am still looking for relevant corporate jobs...this workplace really gets to me whenever i have to complete things by deadlines that just doesn't work. i don't like the us vs. them attitude that splits the firm down to sections, i don't like the fact that the team of people i work with are not really a

abbznoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13480283.post-1163685376963489822006-11-17T00:52:00.000+11:002006-11-17T00:57:48.646+11:00

ooh....if you want a laugh (or are just plain bored at work), my friend's assignment (starring none other than yours truly) is on youtube if you want to search "ned binley" "documentary" "hairdresser"...there are 2 parts...btw, it is a MOCKUMENTARY! and it was unscripted. what a fun shoot!u can comment there...or here...whatever~~ enjoy!

abbznoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13480283.post-1162616206449565582006-11-04T15:32:00.000+11:002006-11-04T15:56:46.463+11:00

trying to look for work, but not really because what i have works for now. so i am at a rut, but not really...back to the daily going to work, receiving audition notices and everything else...i went for quite alot of films, but so far not been too successful.bill gates (i think) said that people fail on an average of 80% of all genuine attempts.so let's start failing!it's great to be back in

abbznoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13480283.post-1162124108566352002006-10-29T23:01:00.000+11:002006-10-29T23:15:08.603+11:00

so, photos. photos of my holiday. photos of being stuck to your partner literally 24/7 aside from brief "oops i lost you" moments and going to public toilets.so, photos.i wish it were that easy. we had about 2 gigs of photos, double up shots, crap shots, test shots to get thru. kenny actually uploaded his online to share...i will add some captions etc as it goes, but there only needs one copy

abbznoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13480283.post-1161785001363777252006-10-25T23:46:00.000+10:002006-10-26T00:03:21.650+10:00

a few things to report.actually not much.just heard edison chen is the male lead in grudge 2.ceri and anton are heading off to india for a month this saturday.i got back to the first day at work.not sure where insecurity is coming from.fearing failing or fearin success?i miss being unplugged from the web but i can't stand not having it.when will i be free?

abbznoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13480283.post-1161600564616117072006-10-23T20:41:00.000+10:002006-10-23T20:51:50.006+10:00

PHEW**!just got back this morning from Tokyo and did a load of laundry and unpacked, now waiting for the photos to come neatly on a DVD :)in the meantime, here's a plug on a performance art piece i'm participating in this weekend. the piece belongs to COFA student Joey Tong...check out da flyer :) 4 bucks get you in for a night of time-based artworks this weekend...

abbznoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13480283.post-1160064749385693472006-10-06T02:07:00.000+10:002006-10-06T02:23:00.376+10:00

Hi…Iz my second day at Vienna and i am having such a ball of a time! This is a beautiful city, so far.Headed off to hundertwasser’s museum yesterday and found his work extremely inspiring and visually interesting – which is more than I can say about a lot of the more traditional art works ive been inundated with the previous week or so. I love everything about his work, and wat he believes in and

abbznoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13480283.post-1159540361222172672006-09-29T23:44:00.000+10:002006-09-30T00:32:41.306+10:00

Here i am on mz final day in budapest and i am bored shitless. I guess from the first day i set foot ont he city till now has been one big 180 degree flip. It was a beautiful and run down city upon first glance, but i think i shouldnt have stayed for 4 days here. 2 or 3 MAX. For one, all the darned christian art is driving me NUTS. We practically saw church after cathedral after temple, even

abbznoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13480283.post-1159455247260031032006-09-28T15:15:00.000+10:002006-09-29T01:36:06.693+10:00

hi all,i am in budapest on our 3rd day and i will apologise for my strange spelling due to the cryllic keyboard as well as a strangelz egyptian decor of this net cafe. by the way, the letter y is in the place of the letter z on this keybaord as well as a few other letters which i wont have time to properly mention. so if i get the spelling drasticallz stupidlz wrong, sorry in advance.budapest is

abbznoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13480283.post-1159198784924129262006-09-26T01:34:00.000+10:002006-09-26T01:52:34.603+10:00

Second day in amsterdam, and loving it. this place has a certain laid-backness about it that i quite like. first day was heading out to sex museum (just a bit of an archive of erotic art - i can't say it was that big a deal as it was made out to be)...we got to the hostel we were stayin' at and all is good. cheap, basic but still okay. i'm glad i took gloria's sleeping bag! first stop was around

abbznoreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13480283.post-1159029681441673952006-09-24T02:36:00.000+10:002006-09-24T02:41:21.450+10:00

hi all,i'm in london in some internet cafe at the moment and it's been awesome so far...as some of you may know that i was emailing from Osaka airport and it's the second day in london and tomorrow i'll be flying out (sob) to amsterdam to catch up with borre and give him his family heirloom back.anywho, 5 min ain't nearly enough to do london much justice, but all i can say it, it's been a warm

abbznoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13480283.post-1158498447562199202006-09-17T22:57:00.000+10:002006-09-17T23:22:12.056+10:00

wongers msn'd me today out of the blue and told me my picture was in SMH in spectrum on the weekend edition...and i was like err..that can't be, i hadn't done any promo for a while...there's nothing promo-like happening for me right now...so he sent me a webcam shot:memories came flooding back...a gig i did for a peace promoting dance party 2 years ago with leigh has surfaced. it was so long i

abbznoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13480283.post-1158373020381689402006-09-16T11:49:00.000+10:002006-09-16T12:33:13.923+10:00

well, that is a hectic week. did some shopping at good o' market city, have a couple of retail horror stories to tell, spent the week seeing friends and catching up...rounding up, all in all. caught up with catherine on thursday...dinner with usyd bunch on wed, bummed at james' work on sunday, list goes on...it's kinda funny when you go all the way to somewhere far like the city only to end up

abbznoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13480283.post-1157981730162023602006-09-11T23:11:00.000+10:002006-09-11T23:35:30.263+10:00

i am finally officially counting down my days till i leave the country. it's strange how something as big as heading to the other side of the world can be discounted by everyday shit that goes by. i keep counting, but i hadn't been CELEBRATING the act of counting down to my doomsday where i will live on bread and water - correction: rye bread, in amsterdam...and what other than...cookies :P

abbznoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13480283.post-1157848275179607942006-09-10T09:12:00.000+10:002006-09-10T10:31:15.236+10:00

thanks james for the oh-so-cute shiny giraffe :) it is my fav of the moment. my sis told me to use a gold chain instead...maybe i'll do that...went costume shopping yesterday with joyce and kenny. rainy, cold and wet and outdoors, we set off. joyce ended up buying a black dress and 2 pairs of lace gloves for 25 bucks, and for me, 10 bucks later, i had a white shawl and a clutch bag! heh...

abbznoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13480283.post-1157369060665641742006-09-04T20:44:00.000+10:002006-09-04T21:24:20.976+10:00

firstly, WELCOME to von to the world of blogger! :)goodbye to Steve Irwin. i don't know anyone as well loved as him. i've loved watching his shows as a kid. what a shame.a little peace of mind. for me. just a piece of it. anniversary is today. love is a funny thing. just now i was in his arms, me in drabby homey clothes, him in work gear. we fell asleep on my extremely small bed.

abbznoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13480283.post-1157275026664553562006-09-03T18:47:00.000+10:002006-09-03T20:00:14.903+10:00

mind is racing around tied to a rope inside my head.for a while my heart has been so still, so tranquil - following the ebb and flow of life, with the usual ups and downs - hum drum of normal life of normal people. going out on weekend, pubbing with colleagues, coffee with mates. working, eating, sleeping. so fucking boring.my heart cried out and i complained not too long ago that my inner

abbznoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13480283.post-1156750483361244242006-08-28T11:56:00.000+10:002006-08-28T17:34:43.430+10:00

Fun script to work on. really enjoyed the on-set environment. i think i've begun to love film just as much as theatre already.i will cringe no doubt upon watching me carrying on like a asian bimbo with some aussie guy.matt was awesome guy to work with. well, obviously i'd go and talk about the actor who had to stick with me almost literally, missing out on beautiful sunshine because the shoot

abbznoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13480283.post-1156600536252571292006-08-26T23:24:00.000+10:002006-08-26T23:55:36.343+10:00

a gathering for stella's welcome and farewell...photos soon...otherwise we'll be having photo after photo on this blog.it was a fun night. got to see lots of ppl, tho i hope that there are more regular catch ups so we can REALLY know how everyone is.my first short film shoot tomorrow as the lead actress. not bad eh? i am quite excited about the project - its just simply and funny :) but 12

abbznoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13480283.post-1156425144532520872006-08-24T23:10:00.000+10:002006-08-24T23:12:24.550+10:00

creperie. :(like a shooting star...*sob* the only great place with consistently delicious food at a good price and it had to be the first to go.oh so sad...*minute silence*

abbznoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13480283.post-1156068504505208242006-08-20T20:06:00.000+10:002006-08-20T21:38:09.006+10:00

first up: thanks daz and miyuki for makin' the show too! i thought you guys had hectic plans but you still took da time to come. thanks heaps!!!!many photos to come...Gus: loves - drinkies throughout performances, dj-ing and living by the beachJames: director, writer, musician, actor. teacher of life lessons :)Georgie: loves pistachios, dashing on-stage with a dress and trackiesJuanita: the

abbznoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13480283.post-1155907206799057192006-08-18T23:03:00.000+10:002006-08-18T23:24:19.463+10:00

whoops...forgot totally about that speed camera...lets hope it's an empty camera...:P bleh...getting fined ain't fun...i guess gunning it down there every night i had to be an ass tonight and FORGET the position of the fixed camera...lolanywho, expected report of the show is in!well, not really.. but i love the run of this show...it's been an awesome cast, no politics - ironic, considering it is

abbznoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13480283.post-1155484205476473012006-08-14T01:47:00.000+10:002006-08-14T01:50:05.496+10:00

abbznoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13480283.post-1154959633563084152006-08-07T23:39:00.000+10:002006-08-08T00:13:03.416+10:00

looking through photos just to see what to post up onto a forum.looking through photos, just to ponder about how much older one can become in one year.does time fly past faster, or have we just become a bit more aware of our limits.how long ago a trip 9 months back seem, when life, everyday-ness take over.i long for time to slip by my fingers just that little bit slower, and let me savour this

abbznoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13480283.post-1154795216753905652006-08-06T01:53:00.000+10:002006-08-06T02:36:35.610+10:00

18 hrs before opening: I woke up to fever and headache and a lead weight body. i thought "SHIT you are kidding me..." and relocated to a more ventilated area - couch...and overheated there...tried the floor, but didn't have energy to find some meds...15 hrs: woke up n thought "SHIT, it's 11" and i...can't lift my head up without wanting to hurl my guts out. took my meds, my panadol and water.

abbznoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13480283.post-1153835583156338162006-07-25T23:28:00.000+10:002006-07-25T23:53:03.213+10:00

just got home from dance lessons. i am really enjoying this series in particular. partner dance is beautiful :Dwe were driving towards our class tonight and f---ing hell some idiot on the oncoming side turned right at a ridiculous speed, skidded its ass and almost spun into our car. what's more strange is that i wasn't actually shaken. and i was shocked that we were a near-miss and i wasn't

abbznoreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13480283.post-1153110701401108772006-07-17T14:27:00.000+10:002006-07-17T14:35:58.366+10:00

Has there ever been a moment of blissTormented the soul so withered and brokeIn memory of one who chose to wake One exhausted mattress, two foolish peopleExposed, naked with minds concealedScent of urgency linger into duskThere were spoken words without meaningCreating with nothing but exchanges of wit A world overflows with well-meant empty promises... Is the easy way out

abbznoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13480283.post-1152167360008121322006-07-06T16:28:00.000+10:002006-07-06T16:29:20.056+10:00

ARGH!!! I've lost the play!(or did i mean to say the plot?)...

abbznoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13480283.post-1151839626185835242006-07-02T21:16:00.000+10:002006-07-02T21:32:47.093+10:00

no relevance.it 's kenny's bday today, went celebrating with his colleagues yesterday. all is well.i am bored. yet i am busy.i bite my tongue.i think a little about life and whatever it doesn't have to offer me at this current momenti dread going to europei just want to...when will people understand that there is no such thing as this person "just being like that" unknowingly. no one does

abbznoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13480283.post-1150981628953656382006-06-22T22:59:00.000+10:002006-06-22T23:07:09.000+10:00

i wasn't going to make a post because today and the last few days became quite insignificant since the snow trip, and i had a ball.but just heard bout a lady that i don't personally know, had a car accident and died instantly. my sisters went to chant for her at the hospital this afternoon and just got back tonight. i felt quite at a loss - i didn't know her. but it's quite a sad

abbznoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13480283.post-1150271580904797182006-06-14T17:33:00.000+10:002006-06-14T17:53:00.916+10:00

hadn't posted because...well...as much as lots of things happened over the long weekend, nothing really puzzled me or anything. been busy as ape at work.heading down to the s-nooooooooooooo fields this weekend, expecting some good cover...and hopefully a cheap board hire place.what else? i've been sick.i also saw cars last night.my two books have been shipped. can't wait can't wait :D i'll be

abbznoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13480283.post-1149602751399382692006-06-06T23:51:00.000+10:002006-06-07T00:05:51.413+10:00

nop, didn't get the gig. not that one. but i did land a gig :D though i was in mourning most of the day over the other one...during my mourning, kenny took me to makoto for a vege sushi dinner at 6pm...and we drove off to northmead for pancakes. i sang badly to some sad songs throughout this long long drive. hot n troppo was okay, but the banana was a bit raw and undercooked.came home, kenny

abbznoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13480283.post-1149341131374964232006-06-03T22:40:00.000+10:002006-06-04T00:07:45.600+10:00

i hope i get the gig....i hope i get the gig....i hope i get the gig....pancakes at northmead has opened. must try the place out! with the cold winter coming, we need to be eating rich and high energy foods *excuse excuse* to keep warm! i suggest the chocolate walnut one..or buttermilk plain with icecream+syrup. mmmmm... crepes have become abit too habitual, i think it's time to convert back

abbznoreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13480283.post-1148832761302201232006-05-29T01:31:00.000+10:002006-05-29T02:12:41.326+10:00

i-a-m-g-o-i-n-g-t-o-V-A-R-E-K-A-I!!!!!!kenny: hey can i give you your anniversary present a bit earlier this year?abb: err....it's 4 months away...but ok...kenny: well, i booked tickets to see varekaiiii. i wasn't going to tell you so soon but i didn't want you to go and buy the tickets...abb: WOWWWW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! when are we going??kenny: hope you wont mind seeing it after our anniversary

abbznoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13480283.post-1148618349650605002006-05-26T13:53:00.000+10:002006-05-26T14:39:09.673+10:00

first of all, HAPPY B'DAY TO NI!today is one of those days where you ponder if you should sit there waiting for a call, or throw the phone away so you are not allowed to be expecting calls from anybody, because your hope seems to cling on a little longer.i may put my phone on silent just to avoid this conflict. and avoid the phone. "i did not hear it". and see what happens...but i'll be sad if

abbznoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13480283.post-1148538929009347872006-05-25T16:33:00.000+10:002006-05-25T17:00:47.460+10:00

i was going to write up a post detailing why i am about to do this, but i thought it dont matter to no one anyway.so...*SCREAM*

abbznoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13480283.post-1148305197771920982006-05-22T23:32:00.000+10:002006-05-22T23:42:56.386+10:00

realising i've become too laxed about my smoking, i really need to stop. it's starting to feel like a habit and i'm starting to feel fidgety when i smell it. BAAAAAAD. who woulda thought smoking 6 in one night a few weeks ago would unlock that part of my brain that goes "aaah, addictive substances" and make me want to smoke everytime i'm out of the office block and in social settings??and

abbznoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13480283.post-1148201576721348752006-05-21T18:33:00.000+10:002006-05-21T18:52:56.736+10:00

had a busy fulfilling weekend...kicked off with friday arvo drinks w/ hoi (choy)...after work drinks with the girls at work...dinner and crepes with kenny's colleagues...started chatting to one of the colleagues, coco, found out why she looked so familiar. she used to work at marcello. cool chick, saved me from potential awkwardness of strange comments that i don't know how to react to...felt

abbznoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13480283.post-1147666451906739482006-05-15T13:14:00.000+10:002006-05-15T15:08:29.236+10:00

note to self: never join a gym, especially not THIS ONE.why in the world must one book an appointment with a manager of the club upon u wanting to cancel ur membership?? at a time only convenient to THEM, not you. it's stupid and time wasting. so after not really ever going to gym, i quit, and paid them an extra 200 bucks. how am i going for cashflow?ok, membership thing is partly my fault

abbznoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13480283.post-1147416140666279532006-05-12T16:25:00.000+10:002006-05-12T16:59:44.686+10:00

heh...don't think i made a post, but last weekend, i bought my first item off ebay :) quite a fun experience. i practically missed the whole thing!anyway, as i asked the concierge at the apartment to help me carry the box upstairs, i stared at the box in anticipation...anyway, i knew approximately where this baby would come from (some developing nation who sold it for $10aud and sold it to me

abbznoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13480283.post-1146728440062972262006-05-08T17:34:00.000+10:002006-05-08T20:20:53.946+10:00

29/4 - The Drive: rejected (racial issue)2/5 - Speaking in Tongues: rejected (apparently age issue)4/5 - Empty Case (film): forfeited - no transport4/5 - Up for Grabs: auditioned but no reply...7/5 - Open Play reading: was AWESOME8/5 - Chilling and Killing My Annabel Lee: screwed up big time10/5 - Show a New Deal: told to come with open mind16or19/5 - The Golden Age: was told okay to apply..will

abbznoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13480283.post-1146652716012073242006-05-03T20:22:00.000+10:002006-05-03T20:43:58.306+10:00

having just taken up volleyball, i've had to give it up all too quickly. for now...i dream alot. i lose sleep. i smoke. i punch my bed. i light matches and watch them burn to black coal. i pick fights. i sometimes feel like crying for no reason. i cook like there's no tomorrow. my neighbours think i'm crazy from chanting lines out loud. i want to scream but i can't.my happiness for the

abbznoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13480283.post-1146269293767351362006-04-29T09:55:00.000+10:002006-04-29T10:08:13.780+10:00

had alot of smoking last night, to the point where i didn't feel so good after. ken's friends were having a birthday celebration and i hadn't gone out of my cave to enjoy myself so instead of feeling awkward i started smoking there.saw a beautiful venetian mask that denise owns. i was totally seduced and again found myself needing to do it. how long was i going to keep spending talking about

abbznoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13480283.post-1146127731360530222006-04-27T18:39:00.000+10:002006-04-27T18:48:51.373+10:00

big HUG n congrats to my cuz NI on her new role as a program manager at the bill gates empire!!!!in other news: i'm now officially $1000 in debt. i loathe being a debtor. continuing acting classes now look something more like a dot in the distant horizon on a dusky winter's evening. i have confirmed "the" ski trip (technically a snowboard trip, but who calls it that?). varekai is off. and i

abbznoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13480283.post-1146037138441559812006-04-26T17:18:00.000+10:002006-04-26T17:38:58.453+10:00

wtf is wrong with people who are asking to be paid but not trying to get money?to be completely unprofessional and all, i will reveal the whole story leaving the parties anon. just to cover my ass. but anyone who knows me knows roughly where i work and what i do...so it can't be that hard to figure out.i talk to this person from advertising sales (now on referred to as "ass") to put up an ad in

abbznoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13480283.post-1145630221536373352006-04-22T00:36:00.000+10:002006-04-22T00:51:45.380+10:00

i have again found myself dodging the effects of natural disaster by a matter of days.having left port douglas last sunday, monica has brought torrential rains causing several major road blockages around the cairns/port douglas area. and to those who haven't been up there, there are only several major roads in this region. ie. you are up there, you're stuck there. no wandering in daintree,

abbznoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13480283.post-1145441002600048642006-04-19T19:43:00.000+10:002006-04-19T20:12:50.176+10:00

i introduce you to my favouritest oggle factor place on this earth:voguetraders: cubic zirconia jewellery - the stuff that really sparkles! the stuff that looks better than the polished up photos! the stuff that can bring on that jaw-drop factor to those who walk by...(how to keep their gaze or sustain their envy, i leave up to you)to cynics out there (i was one of them, until i saw the pieces

abbznoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13480283.post-1145247065771188772006-04-17T13:39:00.000+10:002006-04-17T22:20:11.403+10:00

loved the trip...honestly i don't know how else to describe it...aside from the big WET and RAINY!!! marvellous 7 days...and i bring you...some selected pics...beaching at port douglas - blue bottle season. what you see is not what you get...can't swim in the water except for a very SMALL area where you pay to sit on hired beach chairs...of course, we're waaay too smart to do that, and ended up

abbznoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13480283.post-1144391663371679552006-04-07T16:25:00.000+10:002006-04-07T16:37:10.506+10:00

photos, as taken from cindy's site...but with captions!just a brief recap, we all drove up to jub's house last friday, and played some awesome boardgames....so awesome, that we forgot all about photos, and main ones below are taken of the morning after...a very "white" feast, fit for emperors :Pstill photo: "jub with salad, dutch shepherd's pie and cheese herb brocolli pasta"taken by artist:

abbznoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13480283.post-1144318315803859992006-04-06T20:02:00.000+10:002006-04-06T20:11:55.816+10:00

after the whole tuesday and 3 hours on thursday night of hand sewing, the "al-O-genic dog" has a graduation outfit, ready to model for kenny's graduation tomorrow morning...quite happy about how he's turned out. i think the outfit would be of better quality than the one he'll be wearing tomorrow! lol..."i'ma model, ya know wat i mean..."

abbznoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13480283.post-1143962026373264342006-04-02T16:37:00.000+10:002006-04-02T17:14:26.953+10:00

i give you: random photos finally up from my trip to melb...waiting...and waiting...arrived on friday morning at 8am...it is around 1pm by the time i gave up and waited here: fed. square amongst traffic, commgames bs...and more.the ornament on the bride's family's frontstep...getting ready to go to 'the big day'THE BRIDE!!!!!!too bad my phone camera wasn't good enough to get proper shots...i'm

abbznoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13480283.post-1143762497499409392006-03-31T10:42:00.000+11:002006-03-31T10:48:17.516+11:00

HOW CAN YOU BE TOO LAZY TO FUCKING MMS ME BACK WHEN UR MMS'S ARE FREE?!?!?!?!??!ENUFF SAID.

abbznoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13480283.post-1143121363200775192006-03-23T23:43:00.000+11:002006-03-24T13:48:50.516+11:00

monday night, i had a dream. i was hitch-hiking down an empty dark road, and literally there was nothing except the road and the occasional car. i got onto the back of a truck going towards a place that was unknown to me. i stopped along the way, at a small, badly lit bus stop and bumped into him. we chatted briefly, and i hitched the next car ride away into the same darkness, heading towards

abbznoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13480283.post-1142846360960936742006-03-20T19:24:00.000+11:002006-03-20T21:18:55.820+11:00

no, i didn't go to a weeding. it was a cousin's wedding in melbourne. again, had a big cousin reunion. i love reunions with people i care for. unfortunately my fone is playing up and i can't upload some happy snaps till later. a 3 day celebratory affair...i trained it down on thurs night to arrive on friday morning...didn't sleep. it arrived an hour late. it was bloody freezing. i was in

abbznoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13480283.post-1142157440356112112006-03-12T20:36:00.000+11:002006-03-14T10:47:10.856+11:00

i like shopping.it's such bliss to be walking around with a purpose..to buy a shawl, to buy a bag for my dress to go with the wedding...and end up...with...EXQUISITE things that i didn't really need. but OHHHH i did.witchery is good when it's not overpriced. well, it still is but i can accept. i can understand. 80 bucks for a nice fitted jacked isn't alot to pay here in oz. it is sad. but i

abbznoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13480283.post-1141565358598522022006-03-05T23:56:00.000+11:002006-03-06T00:44:46.360+11:00

i'm back in the world!apparently the lost princess (the play i was playin' princess in @ S+S) didn't do too bad. it was some people's favourite, and frankly, i'm surprised that there were more than around 6 votes, considering the piece wasn't one that people went and "LOOOVED" straight away.I'm so glad i got a chance to be part of a great team of performers who all got together to devise

abbznoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13480283.post-1141133671424780862006-02-28T23:56:00.000+11:002006-03-01T00:34:31.463+11:00

i'm a skank. it's official.anywho, opening night of our week of performances was...nice...i'm not sure, but the artistic director loved our work, though it's a bit of a mixed audience because they weren't sure to clap or not etc...feel good, i'm doing what i'm there to do...some people interacted with me. which was great!ok, back to the abbey the skank story. so naturally to do a show, you

abbznoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13480283.post-1140942989548133002006-02-26T16:26:00.000+11:002006-02-26T19:36:33.020+11:00

it's been a long while since i last frequently posted. it seems that life is moving on, plodding along, and good things are happening to me. and everytime this happens i feel sad, because there aren't many people i have been able to share this with. i feel sad because i can't tell people great news, because i've buried myself so far into doing what needs to be done and pushing too many things

abbznoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13480283.post-1140423327843247032006-02-20T19:03:00.000+11:002006-02-20T19:15:27.860+11:00

lombada. court dancing. tumbling. collapsing.that had no relevance to the rest of my post. it just softly rings in my ear while i spend the days staring at contracts a fox. i have now seen more talent contracts and payrates than most people :D some are genuinely quite amazing, some i think aren't worth their while (long hours and too much time away from home)...back to earth: competition

abbznoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13480283.post-1139219212826663942006-02-06T20:11:00.000+11:002006-02-07T00:17:23.573+11:00

awesome weekend.went to travel expo sat morning. not much to see at first, but met dawer's mate, jae, who works at flight centre who gave us some options...saw a gorgeous pair of bronze peepy-toe shoes. i LOVE it so much...will buy it soon this week as part of the outfit for the wedding in melb. booked train tickets. should be damn fine. will post up pics.anywho...sunday was a beautiful

abbznoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13480283.post-1138761494979911342006-02-01T13:35:00.000+11:002006-02-04T21:33:20.476+11:00

in recovery from - artist block. can't draw a thing, can't write a thing, feeling like the el-unuseful.a pic of frank from opera bar, hands full from 2 bottles of drink, on the phone (again!) and...er..a white clutch bag under his arm..a few housekeeping things. Welcome to Eric and Julya for joining the big bad blogs (at least i only just found out you were typin' away). so, from a period of

abbznoreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13480283.post-1138014911687601222006-01-23T21:07:00.000+11:002006-01-23T22:15:11.703+11:00

it makes you wonder doesn't it, one minute you're minding your peace and the next min some man sits behind you and starts making ching-chong girl going to chop shallot remarks, with his hand next to your shoulder where you're leaning on your seat. you choose to ignore. plenty of those mentally ill people where i used to live. i let it go. one station passes.then the "flie lice" line. this

abbznoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13480283.post-1137374752541334112006-01-16T11:51:00.000+11:002006-01-16T13:05:59.876+11:00

so it seems that my less than perfect audition workshop mode was what made me stand out for the director. so i'll be performing a 10min devised theatre piece for Short n Sweet at the end of Feb..calling up the director for the other audition i did well in costed me my part. oh well. i've learnt now.love cooking linguine with chopsticks. i don't know why it's so much cooler than cooking via

abbznoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13480283.post-1136706311091061082006-01-08T18:37:00.000+11:002006-01-10T00:03:14.930+11:00

a nice, boring, doing nothing sorta weekend. but ooh, hey, everyday is the weekend when you ain't working :Di really shouldn't rub it in, since it's...not good...the usyd boys all did something on friday night that i mite very well have wanted to go and do...what DID i do...i spent almost the whole weekend in a hole mode...first time ever since i quit my job that i thought "what if i don't get

abbznoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13480283.post-1136264015204315062006-01-03T15:52:00.000+11:002006-01-04T07:04:06.163+11:00

in my eternal naivety, i had bought myself a bottle of red nail polish from nine west for 5 bucks on new years eve, hoping to try it out sometime in the bright new year ahead...note to self: there is a reason why you hadn't bought red polish or personally painted on a dark colour on your own nails since you were 8. it is because you can't keep painting in line. and painting your right hand, is

abbznoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13480283.post-1135747292019980272005-12-28T14:26:00.000+11:002005-12-30T12:07:18.406+11:00

sister's challenges today@ westfield. obviously lots of people are hung over and overworked, and today IS the first day of non holiday pay. everything that went wrong did, and all she did was walk downstairs to buy lunch. hearing her very humourous (and what seemed dramatically horrific) experience at the food court makes me feel that some days are better spent at home under the proverbial

abbznoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13480283.post-1135299673279726342005-12-23T11:55:00.000+11:002005-12-23T12:01:13.296+11:00

final final day @ cognos. month end and boss ain't being ontime about it all...sigh...wonder how late this will roll out to be?anyway, this could or couldn't be the final post of the year. new year brings on alot of amazing challenges and prospects. this is the first time i'm looking forward to new year with a certain sense of direction. feels good.thanks julya for shoutin' us all dinner last

abbznoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13480283.post-1133477294655724872005-12-02T09:45:00.000+11:002005-12-06T18:21:24.576+11:00

lots of people are posting once again...after andrew has dropped off the face of the earth for..some many months, welcome back :Dwongers is back and blogging away...frank the china tourist and the officer with justice slip...on his new blog...not much to report. hopefully the correct side of my brain gets more of a workout after i quit the mind numbing job that is 9-5. hate 9-5...can't seem to

abbznoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13480283.post-1133172186402109292005-11-28T20:25:00.000+11:002005-11-30T07:41:54.813+11:00

weather makes me sleepy.i must be ill. toove-aik...again...this time pushing against my jawbone...making my bowling session with kenny's group very...trying. but still, one picture for the night: alicia and the boys playing leg stacking at bowling alley. too bad the clearer photo is of the fallen stack of legs :(cindy dented her car, whilst ironically complaining that "the grads give (her) the

abbznoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13480283.post-1132473117214085072005-11-20T18:29:00.000+11:002005-11-27T13:00:38.580+11:00

it's great thing, shopping. especially if you've been dying to go there for a while...especially in newtown...since us 3 sisters never spend any time together, we thought it'd be cool to head to the place to be...and at 12:30pm, we have eaten a lovely lunch, thanks to corellis (just past newtown stn on king st)check out the gorgeous strawberry waffle with ricotta cheese, and the corn fritter +

abbznoreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13480283.post-1131970845784731222005-11-14T23:07:00.000+11:002005-11-14T23:30:46.076+11:00

much faithfully regretted watching wolf creek tonite. i expected scary, creepy, lovely landscape photography, graphic scenes, staring into the darkness of human nature, etcetera etcetera, blase blase. and yes, i got it. i loved the actors. i love the general storyline, i love love love the actors, the beautiful scenery, all of that. i was horrified, disgusted, tense, scared, whatever. but i

abbznoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13480283.post-1131433021843405662005-11-08T17:25:00.000+11:002005-11-09T23:48:14.390+11:00

some sorry stupid asshole with too much time on their hands. say it after me: "ass-hooooole" (ala meet the fockers)enuff said.studying educating rita script, hope to audition it at some stage...too tired and too not bothered. job sux...but the only reason i'm still there is coz...well..the money is bloody good for what i have to do...but i'm not getting experience i need from it. and now that

abbznoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13480283.post-1131280219477154022005-11-06T23:16:00.000+11:002005-11-06T23:49:38.976+11:00

second week over.much love to masaki who came on saturday matinee - LOVE the flowers :D LOVE the dark lillies...they are awesome against the white rose!!! sorry about the shaky hand pic that didn't really do the lovely bunch of flowers any justice...i think masaki has a pic of both of us that HE WILL SEND ME - RITE??RITE??saturday nite was the best performance experience so far in terms of energy

abbznoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13480283.post-1131088127236278372005-11-04T17:57:00.000+11:002005-11-04T18:08:47.250+11:00

pre friday night jitters.not really.my scary night was last night...15 people showed up. that's such a small number that no one laughed at the jokes, i couldn't feel if they were falling asleep or intently watching or both...they didn't laugh at my lines (which ARE funny)...there were more muffled laughters...but the end of show applause and the intent grin on their faces as we went out on

abbznoreply@blogger.com0