22.5.06
turkey...
realising i've become too laxed about my smoking, i really need to stop. it's starting to feel like a habit and i'm starting to feel fidgety when i smell it. BAAAAAAD. who woulda thought smoking 6 in one night a few weeks ago would unlock that part of my brain that goes "aaah, addictive substances" and make me want to smoke everytime i'm out of the office block and in social settings??
and suddenly i'm meeting more and more smokers again to smoke with, and fall into the whole social trap. must be strong and not smoke. i've left it to be ok only in heavy drinking /very old friends situations, but lately i hadn't stuck to my guns and i'm pretty ashamed about it. i shouldn't be doing this to myself and i can do much better than that.
promise to self: i'm cold turkey-ing again to get this shit out of my system. smoking=bad. no smoking at all. i need a bit of control and i'm letting it go too much. not good...guys, don't let me smoke...
Post a Comment
Powered for Blogger by Blogger Templates
and suddenly i'm meeting more and more smokers again to smoke with, and fall into the whole social trap. must be strong and not smoke. i've left it to be ok only in heavy drinking /very old friends situations, but lately i hadn't stuck to my guns and i'm pretty ashamed about it. i shouldn't be doing this to myself and i can do much better than that.
promise to self: i'm cold turkey-ing again to get this shit out of my system. smoking=bad. no smoking at all. i need a bit of control and i'm letting it go too much. not good...guys, don't let me smoke...
Post a Comment