30.10.05
weekend...test drove the colt. it was impressive, but no, not THAT excellent. but 19990 driveaway is a good deal for what you get. and i appreciated their naming the colour i like "blueberry" because, it does look like a blueberry. just put red interiors in it and viola!
first week of shows have finished. excellent opening crowd, great sunday audience (everyone who said they'd arrive on sunday didn't end up doing so in some mishap...) apparently the ticket said "sunday 8pm" instead of 5, and there were confusions on reservations end...oh well, it coulda been worse ~
tired...slept a record 13 hrs before i woke up yesterday (i believe) and about 10 hrs...so nice to get those chinese steam buns for brekkie in bed...i guess i appreciate the small things in life :) mantou is the best!
there were these 3 older ladies who walked up to me after today's show and said "how do u remember all these lines? we really enjoyed ourselves, thankyou" and i was like "wow...a comment from a stranger...." felt pretty happy for a little while :) i mean, i believe it when my family congratulated me on opening night, but on some levels, it's good to get external feedback...especially positive ones~ i invite all raving reviews :P
anyways, week ahead...taking wednesday off to a job int. in the city...hope to catch some people there, and get the damned job, and then spend the arvo at a cafe reading my audition piece for the next show...omg...it's a returning show that i'm wanting to get into (professional theatre!) and hope all goes well...*fingers crossed* it's a very gutsy and strong character i'm auditioning...lets hope i get the jist before saturday audition...
my week has been full of microwave meals. quite funny for a person who once said "i don't consider microwave meals "meals" because they are just so wrong" and i lived through the week on them...welcome to the 3min life.
3min...yes. lost contact with many people over the past few months. hope to catch up heaps after this is over...and want to go on weekend away too....hope i get a week off when i quit this job to move into another role....mmm....lets hope it all works out. *wish me luck for int. on wed*...
tata!
first week of shows have finished. excellent opening crowd, great sunday audience (everyone who said they'd arrive on sunday didn't end up doing so in some mishap...) apparently the ticket said "sunday 8pm" instead of 5, and there were confusions on reservations end...oh well, it coulda been worse ~
tired...slept a record 13 hrs before i woke up yesterday (i believe) and about 10 hrs...so nice to get those chinese steam buns for brekkie in bed...i guess i appreciate the small things in life :) mantou is the best!
there were these 3 older ladies who walked up to me after today's show and said "how do u remember all these lines? we really enjoyed ourselves, thankyou" and i was like "wow...a comment from a stranger...." felt pretty happy for a little while :) i mean, i believe it when my family congratulated me on opening night, but on some levels, it's good to get external feedback...especially positive ones~ i invite all raving reviews :P
anyways, week ahead...taking wednesday off to a job int. in the city...hope to catch some people there, and get the damned job, and then spend the arvo at a cafe reading my audition piece for the next show...omg...it's a returning show that i'm wanting to get into (professional theatre!) and hope all goes well...*fingers crossed* it's a very gutsy and strong character i'm auditioning...lets hope i get the jist before saturday audition...
my week has been full of microwave meals. quite funny for a person who once said "i don't consider microwave meals "meals" because they are just so wrong" and i lived through the week on them...welcome to the 3min life.
3min...yes. lost contact with many people over the past few months. hope to catch up heaps after this is over...and want to go on weekend away too....hope i get a week off when i quit this job to move into another role....mmm....lets hope it all works out. *wish me luck for int. on wed*...
tata!
22.10.05
without further ado...
finally...i graduate.
photo with chris (cuz) taken @ main quad
my man, me and a whopping HUGE bunch of flowers from my sis+him...who says i don't like flowers?!
an occasion for an updated "3 sisters" pic...
bumped into ray who was handing in applications for usyd...
that piece of paper costs $40k....but i couldn't really be arsed to take photos with it....flowers are better :D16.10.05
commonwealth bank are a bunch of losers.
i closed my account over 3 months ago and have spoken to them NUMEROUS times about a "direct debit" i "had" with vodafone...which i DONT! i told them to close the account, and they charge me 72c overdrawn charges for charges they were too stupid not to have paid. they are such leechers. i wanted to give the cust service girl a slap across the face for being so DUMB.
enuff said.
i closed my account over 3 months ago and have spoken to them NUMEROUS times about a "direct debit" i "had" with vodafone...which i DONT! i told them to close the account, and they charge me 72c overdrawn charges for charges they were too stupid not to have paid. they are such leechers. i wanted to give the cust service girl a slap across the face for being so DUMB.
enuff said.
14.10.05
why is my mind playing games with me?
i so wish that whenever my head touches the pillow that i do not begin dreaming about things i don't want to believe, and are not true.
who says i don't think too much?
i suppose i have to let go of some latent images inside my head that find their way to my eyes as i sleep at night. because this really is affecting me. i can't stop dreaming about stuff and i thought same time last year was the best, i slept wonderfully without uninvited images, and wake up each morning feeling happy, refreshed, energetic and in love. at that point, i became slightly afraid that i had lost my sense of imagination and intuition, but now that it's back i wish it was gone. i don't want "what if"s in my head.
say it isn't so
say it isn't so.
but, it isn't! it's just my mind being awful! never quite allowing me to fully enjoy what life is offering me right this moment. it's driving me insane. i don't know if this is considered pre-production stress-out time...but i yearn for those nights where i do not dream, and better still, not dream about ridiculous things.
i feel a disconnection from my friends lately, even as i talk to them and see them on occasion, i find i am losing something inspite of not really having lost anything. friends will always be friends, and contact is good. and to a certain degree it is there. why am i being so negative, again? after fighting this bullshit for so many years, i thought i had found a certain common ground, and now the ground isn't even there for more than a week at a time before turning into slush that i slowly sink under. this probably means i hadn't found that common ground and that i will need to do soon in order to stop driving people away.
things happening....my show starts in 2 weeks, and alot of my closer friends have not so much as breathe a sigh about it. in a way i feel unsupported, but i can't expect them to support me in a show if they don't like theatre. there is a certain dissatisfaction there that i will have to grow into accepting.
relationship: going good, i think i'm feeling all weird because of stupid hay fever and being kept up all night by a buzz of electrical cords at kenny's house making me have nightmares that needn't have if i was sleeping in my own bed. slightly let down last night. don't ask why.
i have deep sleep. and good sleep. i think it's expectations not meeting with reality, and it's not because something falls short of the scale, but more so that things are just so fine and fuzzy it doesn't quite feel right (yes, typical girls, you say)...should shut my gob and start enjoying myself
guilt: having bought a 10class pass to bikram yoga, i had only gone to about 4...and skipped it weeks on end now because of rehearsals, tiredness, laziness...this guilt is eating into my everyday life coz i'm much more lethargic...too bad yoga triggers my hayfever AND my god damn hormone levels i'm a bit scared of doing it right now :P (excuses excuses!)
must find a new job, a mantra i have kept saying for the past few months but never quite actioned.
auditioning for a travelling acting gig for half a year? major questions there (stupid what if's again) and i feel a bit dissed whenever i bring it up. "what is there to think about when it's not a situation right in front of us" - valid point, and exactly what my dad would say had he still been around.
thought alot about dad lately...thankyou very much, HOUSE! the black dude's rendition of a dying suffering man was quite...precise. thanks a fucking lot! did not want to see that!
dad's words occasionally come out of people's mouths and i just know i gotta go follow them. even if it means admitting fault to someone who i don't like to be wrong in front of.
travelling back to hk...and "one other destination"...it sounds like it's a jap. stopover, which i'm nto THAT excited about...i guess it's jsut one of those overpitched destinations and i'm a bit more into going to philo instead. or china.
heard about my baby cuz..he's 10 i think, this year...i wonder why i don't have stronger bonds with my cousins, and realise it's because i'm out too much doing my own damn thing without them. want to organise a nice dinner with them before show starts...
mmm...dinner...made an eggplant parmagiano the other day. damn i am a fucking good chef~!
i so wish that whenever my head touches the pillow that i do not begin dreaming about things i don't want to believe, and are not true.
who says i don't think too much?
i suppose i have to let go of some latent images inside my head that find their way to my eyes as i sleep at night. because this really is affecting me. i can't stop dreaming about stuff and i thought same time last year was the best, i slept wonderfully without uninvited images, and wake up each morning feeling happy, refreshed, energetic and in love. at that point, i became slightly afraid that i had lost my sense of imagination and intuition, but now that it's back i wish it was gone. i don't want "what if"s in my head.
say it isn't so
say it isn't so.
but, it isn't! it's just my mind being awful! never quite allowing me to fully enjoy what life is offering me right this moment. it's driving me insane. i don't know if this is considered pre-production stress-out time...but i yearn for those nights where i do not dream, and better still, not dream about ridiculous things.
i feel a disconnection from my friends lately, even as i talk to them and see them on occasion, i find i am losing something inspite of not really having lost anything. friends will always be friends, and contact is good. and to a certain degree it is there. why am i being so negative, again? after fighting this bullshit for so many years, i thought i had found a certain common ground, and now the ground isn't even there for more than a week at a time before turning into slush that i slowly sink under. this probably means i hadn't found that common ground and that i will need to do soon in order to stop driving people away.
things happening....my show starts in 2 weeks, and alot of my closer friends have not so much as breathe a sigh about it. in a way i feel unsupported, but i can't expect them to support me in a show if they don't like theatre. there is a certain dissatisfaction there that i will have to grow into accepting.
relationship: going good, i think i'm feeling all weird because of stupid hay fever and being kept up all night by a buzz of electrical cords at kenny's house making me have nightmares that needn't have if i was sleeping in my own bed. slightly let down last night. don't ask why.
i have deep sleep. and good sleep. i think it's expectations not meeting with reality, and it's not because something falls short of the scale, but more so that things are just so fine and fuzzy it doesn't quite feel right (yes, typical girls, you say)...should shut my gob and start enjoying myself
guilt: having bought a 10class pass to bikram yoga, i had only gone to about 4...and skipped it weeks on end now because of rehearsals, tiredness, laziness...this guilt is eating into my everyday life coz i'm much more lethargic...too bad yoga triggers my hayfever AND my god damn hormone levels i'm a bit scared of doing it right now :P (excuses excuses!)
must find a new job, a mantra i have kept saying for the past few months but never quite actioned.
auditioning for a travelling acting gig for half a year? major questions there (stupid what if's again) and i feel a bit dissed whenever i bring it up. "what is there to think about when it's not a situation right in front of us" - valid point, and exactly what my dad would say had he still been around.
thought alot about dad lately...thankyou very much, HOUSE! the black dude's rendition of a dying suffering man was quite...precise. thanks a fucking lot! did not want to see that!
dad's words occasionally come out of people's mouths and i just know i gotta go follow them. even if it means admitting fault to someone who i don't like to be wrong in front of.
travelling back to hk...and "one other destination"...it sounds like it's a jap. stopover, which i'm nto THAT excited about...i guess it's jsut one of those overpitched destinations and i'm a bit more into going to philo instead. or china.
heard about my baby cuz..he's 10 i think, this year...i wonder why i don't have stronger bonds with my cousins, and realise it's because i'm out too much doing my own damn thing without them. want to organise a nice dinner with them before show starts...
mmm...dinner...made an eggplant parmagiano the other day. damn i am a fucking good chef~!
9.10.05
2.10.05
its been hard to update anything on the blog..seems everyone has become too busy with work to be updating theirs, and i've been too...normal to update anything on mine.
this week was a part disappointment, part excellent weekend. its been the first completely brain-free weekend, went out w/ ken's colleagues, who made sexist jokes about girlfriends etc...so funny..why does he have such a phobia of being pussywhipped?! it's just funny listening to that guy...
watched yellowfeather on sat nite...i'm usually quite skeptical of one person shows, but this one was great! like...got to bow 3 times that actor...she's heaps good, lots of energy..too bad last nite was her final show in syd. wanted to meet up with friends this week but have been unable to...they keep doggin me at last minute. which usually feels really bad, but hey, it happens...esp when i hadn't contacted them in yonks...
so i started reading my script again. i'm probably finally started to understand more of the characters i'm doing...
which leads me to do a plug for the show - early bird tickets are available thru MEEEE, 16 bucks flat rate rather than 18 for students and 22 for adult tix...M. Butterfly comes out on 29th October (28th Preview) and it's going to be AWESOME, i guarantee it! but u gotta book early - pay me by 15th and i can def reserve - early bird gets best seats in da house so yeah, should be excellent...i watched parts of the show (parts that i dont appear in) and so far, so bloody great! i love one of the more intense scenes that happens later on in the show, but man, the actors there are something to be admired...
so yeap... come come!
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this week was a part disappointment, part excellent weekend. its been the first completely brain-free weekend, went out w/ ken's colleagues, who made sexist jokes about girlfriends etc...so funny..why does he have such a phobia of being pussywhipped?! it's just funny listening to that guy...
watched yellowfeather on sat nite...i'm usually quite skeptical of one person shows, but this one was great! like...got to bow 3 times that actor...she's heaps good, lots of energy..too bad last nite was her final show in syd. wanted to meet up with friends this week but have been unable to...they keep doggin me at last minute. which usually feels really bad, but hey, it happens...esp when i hadn't contacted them in yonks...
so i started reading my script again. i'm probably finally started to understand more of the characters i'm doing...
which leads me to do a plug for the show - early bird tickets are available thru MEEEE, 16 bucks flat rate rather than 18 for students and 22 for adult tix...M. Butterfly comes out on 29th October (28th Preview) and it's going to be AWESOME, i guarantee it! but u gotta book early - pay me by 15th and i can def reserve - early bird gets best seats in da house so yeah, should be excellent...i watched parts of the show (parts that i dont appear in) and so far, so bloody great! i love one of the more intense scenes that happens later on in the show, but man, the actors there are something to be admired...
so yeap... come come!