apple?

mmm..i wana learn the bass guitar...

back to reality - tonight i will meet a new set of cast, start on a fresh script...fresh vibes in the air..i'm excited...wonder how big/small my part will be?

went for coffee/meal with frank after my show on saturday nite at - you guessed it - tomato cafe...coffee was weak, but i still am a sucker for the seats...tat, and the fact tat i barely drink coffee nowadays, and this place is awesome, closes at 3am :) great to see him again, and also called wongers up for a chat - good to hear from people...i've been a bit away from people...miss derek's funny comments...must catch up...

i'm not sure if i'll blog on the day, but if i don't get a chance, a HUGE HUGE shout to james, my lill bro on his 22nd birthday happening on wednesday! hope all is well :) and probably see you on thursday night anyways, so all good!

on the weekend, went to...miranda!~ and bought...JELLY BELLYS and HERSHEY'S KISSES, and KRISPY KREMES...now i hadn't been the hugest fan of KK, but my god the jam filled ones and the cinnamon donuts are mm-mm...the plain one is just so-so in my opinion, but gosh, try the rest! they're great stuff! and they're opening in chattie, down the road from my apartment... hehehe i will be a fat bitch soon...

because i also put gym on hold...trying to find a wushu place (i will eventually start someday)...

ANYONE UP FOR SOME WUSHU CLASSES??

mmm..a leaf...

tomato cafe restaurant and karaoke is all good.

after all that whinging and "bleh" ing yesterday on blog and all, i was having a sulk to kenny on mobile...

i said: aah, she was better, i didn't get it...i don't feel like doing nething etc
he said: come on, let's do this, this this..

suddenly i got put on call waiting and i got a call coming in..so i took it...the director called me back...

he said: hi, i am calling about M. Butterfly.
i said: er..hi, how's it going?
he said: Good - just called because I would like to cast you as Chin"
i said: OH! YOU DO?!
he said: ...yes...and if you would like to begin rehearsing next week...
i said: wow, i am....happy, now...

the new job front ain't looking too swell...and i'm not too fussed. i'll live.

oh..about tomato cafe..i really like that place..and it's open till 3am...with nice lounge seats, and overpriced drink menu, non-smoking restaurant...it's all good. we must all go there and chill sometime...i ordered a mushroom fried rice last night and as per korean restaurants, they dished out a selection of pickles...ooh..pickles i love :) i think i'll be back in the not too distant future...

show's back up tonight...aah... :)

bleh. everything is a bleh right now.

yesterday i went for an unexpected interview and i "got the job" and have to meet the actual manager today and today i am a bit uncertain, but thought i'd go for it neway coz the job looks...challenging and new. this manager who accepted me already sort of, has come round and realised how much MORE experience this role shouldn't actually be an assistant role but a coordinator role...she's disorganised, it feels. she's unsure if i have neough experience...(?? it's a marketing assistant role, i'm ASSISTING and doing some bigger projects, but i'm not half of you!) but anyway, will see how it all rolls out. i'm happy if i get it, but not upset if i don't.

went to the callback for audition last night. i went ok, but obviously not as well as the other girl who auditioned. since they didn't call today about the role even though they said they would. sometimes just gotta take the joy with the blows that acting is. sometimes i wonder if i'm cut out for it, because i guess, i'm simply not good enough, or too old, or too young, or too asian for parts. or something.

when the audition place called me back on sunday asking me to come to a callback audition, i was happy, i didn't expect an audition where i whispered would have allowed me to be called back. yesterday when i unexpectedly landed a marketing assistant role, i was happy...spirits were high and i thought "hey, that's serendipitous". indeed.

yesterday, all my troubles seem so far away
now it looks as though they're here to stay
oh i believe in yesterday...
yesterday, life was such an easy game to play
now i need a place to hide away
oh i believe in yesterday.

i'm glad i'll be heading back to the comfy dark lair of "bang bang you're dead" because surely i can be quite in character without trying. bleh. bleh. bleh.

re. the marketing role - i really have to say this, even if i end up with the job: this woman is SO DISORGANISED. it won't be easy to work with her. she didn't even give the specs of the job description properly and kept changing her mind. she needs to step back and get some PERSPECTIVE. oh well...yesterday...

bye stella!! (at least that's what i should have said if i went to her farewell last night...bleh...:( i completely lost my voice, save for a very very low note...(the low c, for those of you that might be interested) so i ended up performing using my manly voice on saturday night. my husband had a higher voice than me, it was funny...

opening night was great, best show we've done ever, and things can only get better! Because we've passed the "second night" - which is notorious for people missing the mark because the first night was great etc...but it was still so excellent! on cue, had the assistant director and cast cover for me in some of my parts, so i survived. will go back and do it again this arvo...

anyway, to the bitching column: don't ever go to winsure bbq kitchen in victoria ave chatswood (one closest to NAB). NEVER...don't do it to yourself!!!

i pointed at this dish that i wasn't sure what it was, and asked them to order it...they gave us some dish, so i thought "oh, ok.that's cool" and when we went up to pay for it, it turns out that the fob waiter decided to write something quite a bit more expensive that appears on the OTHER side of the menu, at about 3 times the cost. now i would have just paid it coz it wasn't a big deal, (the actual monetary amount is noticeable but not THAT much that i would bother) but i explained to the lady (in my husky man voice) that what the waiter put down wasn't the name of what i ordered, but it doesn't matter we ate it, we'll pay for it.

what she said next just plainly shocked me: she goes in an all bitchy, thinking i'd try and jib her voice "well if you think it's wrong then you shouldn't have eaten it" and i said "what the fuck?! i didn't know it was wrong until you rang it on the bill" and before i could continue my sore throat saved the lady (and possibly my own) grace because i was going to tell her many bad things in front of a full customer venue...she just stared down at the register and pretended not to hear a thing i said.

so, why did i get so worked up? surely it can't be that big a deal to react so much to - it's about $10 difference, i can survive with $10 less...i've worked in a restaurant before, so i should know that restaurants make mistakes too...so why the big reaction plus a big plug for the restaurant on my blog?

• i lost my bloody voice and couldn't be heard, and that REALLY shits me because i love the sound of my voice (latter part - i joke i joke, i kid i kid)
• pointing an item on the menu makes me responsible for whatever chinese characters were written onto our order sheet by the fob waiter - so much for trying new things at a fob joint.
• you would think copying chinese characters from the menu onto an order form is plain simple...obviously not true to fobs
• ordering an item on the menu in a fob place implies that i know exactly what it is, which is just plain shitty. "lets just order what we ALWAYS order...again - that way, we'd know exactly what we've ordered!
  
• fob restaurants don't bother repeating an order to you, or assumes that they are 100% correct on orders so they don't bother telling you
• going into a fob restaurant implies that the uneducated rude H-A-G at the counter is entitled to tell you off for their mistakes and make you pay for a dish you never ordered
• fob restaurants count pennies and assume that other people are trying to rip them off because that's what they do to others on a daily basis
  

not all fob restaurants do this, but for those who do: fuck fob restaurants that don't have any common courtesy. i just don't need to walk as far now to get to another one - the one 2 shops up the road gives much better service :P

oh...a big WELCOME *WAVE* to celine: the new addition to my links list... :) didn't know you blogged, my dear! coming to think of which...it's been about a year or something since i last saw that girl..and about half a year since i saw her sister last...where have they disappeared to?!

i want more sleep.my cough has been waking me up every hour at night for the whole week now...i would like to have a decent 8 hour rest in a row where i don't get woken up by anything...sleep...doesn't everyone seem to want more of it...(especially frank, who claimed he enjoyed waking up early, in the am's, then what happened next day :P)

well, went auditioned yesterday, i didn't want to, because i lost my voice, but i really want to give it a go, and the director wanted to see me anyway, and i'm like..."why - i can't even speak right now!" but after a short audition, reading (whispering) line runs opposite the assist. director, i got let off, and i thought to myself "bleh, i don't think i'd get it, i suck" while hoping that they would do as they said and call me for a call back today for wednesday night. but i dont think they will - they prolly didn't like me tats why i got let off so soon. never got to do my monologue that i practised so much...erk...my "husband" in the play went for audition as well, and he says he didn't get to read monologue, but auditioned next to an older guy....i think we might be too young to cast in the play or something...i don't get why they needed us to put down our ages...what's the point of that? if i knew they wanted an older cast i woulda put down an older age...(*gasp* i hear you say - why would a girl put down an older age than her own?!)

hahaha...aah..*cough* it's so fun to be around with that cast...but once show starts you know it'll end sometime....and that thought is saddening... ;(

i have lost my voice. it's true.

to cure this by 8pm tonight, i will have drank at least 5L water, taken a total of 15 tablets and gargled around 2 shot glasses of betadine (you know, the stuff that smell like hospital floors?)

maybe i'll be cured, maybe i won't, and if i don't, i'm doomed.
on the other hand, i'll be fine and would be thanking this awful tasting crap for giving me a voice.

stressed, yet quite excited...amused, at the thought of opening night full of sick cast...and director...that would be quite funny huh? wonder how the others are doing...right now, to cure themselves? i hope the director won't call for any more rehearsals - we're as good as we will ever be from showtime onwards.

this flu thing has come at the worst possible time, when i have another audition tomorrow as well...and you know, i naively thought it'd go away later today or tomorrow...but it's possibly just getting started...

now...besides me, who's sick?

huge shoutout (metaphorically, not literally because my voice is a bit off) to WONGERS for his birthday on 12th...i wasn't home and didn't end up blogging due to my looming sickness, which i will try so damn f-ing hard to get over before production starts on friday.

was supposed to go credo with the birthday boy tonite, but BLEH...at 3:30, that real fully sick feeling kicked in and i was immobile for the next few hours...though i managed to take a HUGe amount of medication...2 asprins, a paracetamol, an "ease-a-cold" tablet, plus my other stuff...man i sound like a drug abuser or something :P but sick i am so i should try to get better. wonder how credo held up, with the famous usyd food critics??? best dishes, worst dishes, desserts? how much it costed etc... last i heard a set menu was 50 bucks something...wow..i woulda loved to eeeeeat! is it worth a visit?

anyway, at least i'm not on my way to lose my voice...it sounds like i'll get better before friday, thank whoever that's looking out for me lately :) ready, what time is it? SHOWTIME!!! :)

probably a short post, but i'm sure it's a nice refreshing change from a lotta babble...night for now!!

(oops, forgot to give credit to the lyrics below.....it's by donny darko...i didn't write it - i'm not depressed enough neway :D)

oww..
too much physical exertion and now my whole body hurts - stairs are the hardest thing since getting in and out of the car...f currently listening to monologue that I have to remember and do on saturday, but it's not working (obviously) because i'm still online! i wish i can just impro and get it over n done with!

i'd love to post photos of the set and costuming but tat would ruin the surprise won't it?

not too talkative at the moment...i just want to sleep. but i have to practise otherwise i'll make a complete fool of myself on saturday...and no, we don't want that.

big shout out to all that were in acoustic lounge!!! loved all the performances and wished i wasn't quite so tired - would have loved to talk to everyone there and meet the ones i don't know...my gosh, what about rainbow? she was damn awesome! love her work...louis + amanda in their song...it's as if they knew i love snoopy! :)

where can i get a copy of the music? hm....

man, i should download the songs that will be in the play...

i will have doors from Tuesday~! yessss

for now, here's a song that will sure lighten your day...

after 3 hours sniffing aerosol fumes from a spraycan of black paint, i have experienced my first chemical high since the drug+alcohol free era the abbsta has endured. it was so very strange. so easily did i get into character - and the character wasn't even mine! let me explain how aerosol fumes came into the picture...i wasn't deliberately sniffing up on it. we had alot of black to paint, and the hardware shop seemed to have run out of paint at a budget price. the set is classic black and white, and it just plays with your mind. before i ruin it for everyone who may be coming, it sure was fucking with my mind (or the aerosol fumes were)...after 3 hrs of sniffing and rehearsing, i got home, felt elated and free, like all was well, browsed the net and fell asleep.

i could swear my whole lungs were black still - literally, with sniffing of black spraypaint particles...not good. i can feel it and it's in my throat etc. hail to protective gear...because professional painters must have such big probs later on in life.

grim reaper, as promised:

note the strong skeletal structure, the hollow skull and accented cheekbones indicating authoratativeness? the mad ass cape and that sharp curved blade on his scythe? doesn't this image command respect and fear??? he will take you away, and he means business!!!!









now have a look at this supposed grim reaper (courtesy of the RTA):

note that grey head with big round, black eyes - not a eye sockets. the skin covering its skull - you can't see teeth showing as would a human skull. the cape, were it red, would pass off as being little red riding hood's, obviously there to hide a big brained head. lanky frame...typical of aliens...only bigger because it's half human or something...and look at that pole...like...er..WHAT?! a "turn" sign?! wow...so what, the grim reaper is now moonlighting as a tour guide giving directions?

or is it a UFO-humanoid touring round town, posing with the turn sign for a lovely photo of a foggy, earthly morning? wow, i can just imagine what is behind that turn..."slow down, otherwise you'll miss it!"

this is easily a tourist attraction sign: "slow down and turn that-a-way, and you will see the ufo we've landed."

OMG! how can anyone think that's a grim reaper?! this is pathetic! we drove past this on that dark stretch of freeway on a misty cold night, and when i saw it i went "why do they have a ufo...." and then realised it was in fact a bad bad bad artist trying to capture the essence of the grim reaper. if the billboard's intention was to caution drivers, it won't work...

now imagine a 5m tall grim reaper billboard with a sceptre in its hand, staring at a driver late at night on a deserted freeway, i can just imagine the driver being scared shitless, screaming, speed up and missed the turn and crashed into the trees - which would have defeated the billboard's purpose...

Oh~!...that's why there were so many crosses on the trees...

hm...a new page...finally...it is a good feeling.

first things first: welcome JAMES' blog...

i've given up on geocities and now i'm here - where i never have to do any annoying maintenance/layout etc ever again...

this is good. why manual archive, when you have something to do it for you?

ooh, check out the comments section!!! :)

bananabread is good too. especially when you shove it in the thick slice toaster at work and it comes out perfect on both sides and is piping hot.

according to my wallet, i have a grand total of $8.60 to last the rest of the week. i'd like to see how this ends up. hasn't been good on cashflow front - i spent 20 on pizza on sunday when we were painting the set at lanecove, and 20 on coffee+desserts on monday night coz i just needed to get out of the house coz i hadn't slept properly in days. i didn't want to spend money but i needed to go away and i needed to eat...so anyway, in effect, $8.60 for 3 days means i have $2.85 to spend on transport and food everyday...maybe i'll drive...but that amount won't get me anything! i figure that if i keep not eating, then i will be able to eat on friday :P aah, i'm joking...i'll just have to start purchasing supplies at home and make my own lunch. actually...stuff eating lunch...i can make it up at dinner...

canned soup costs more than $2.85 to buy! i think i might live on bread for this week - like i used to sometimes in high school when we were feeling poor. i remember those times...a viet bakery offers wonderful variety of food at discounted prices. a cheese+salad roll would be $1.50 when it costs way more at the school canteen - and the roll is still warm! those were the days...and what about azn instant noodles at school? i say azn because fantastic noodles just don't even come close - go the korean noodle! i love it! it's even vegetarian!

i guess when you're in year 12 and you have a common room (finally!) you feel so privileged amongst the rest of the school. own microwaves, heaters...on winter days, the juniors can sit outside and freeze their asses off while you sit indoors on couches (musty as they were, but whoz complaining? it's off limits to everyone else except us!) and what about the dreary "i'm trying to rain" days where the ground is soaked but you still gotta sit outside? well, gas heater's in common room ;) when you want to run away from that junior girl who claims to be in love with your boyfriend and has been stalking you around the school grounds between periods - COMMON ROOM! man, common room is like godsend...if only i believed in god. sure, it was cramming 80 chicks in the one room, but we got to know each other ALOT better! then again, i did spend alot of the time jigging...

why is it called jigging and wagging? like...i can't think of any associations to how these words became the words to use when you want to cut class...